Slow going but still going...

Yes, this first two weeks has started off a little slow but that is ok. There was a week of vacation in there but the eating has been better than anticipated (in a good way) and I am still walking. I got to the point where I can walk up to the end of the street and back and I do not feel like I am going to die. The first day, I could barely make it to the end of the drive way with out being out of breath. I still need to put more into the program! Do not know if there is really any weight loss so far, but that is not really what this is all about.


Why wont you look me directly in the eye? When you are the "fat guy", no one really wants to look you directly in the eye. When I go walking in the mall, at the grocery store, or some other public place, no one will really stop to look me straight in the eye. They turn away fast, look the other way really quick, as if I am contagious and they might get fat by looking at me. Always make me wonder! Makes me very sad.



So there are some things going on...


- Happy birthday to my wife! She is turing $# on Sunday. AARP is just around the corner sweetie. 
- My disease speculation continues! Now I think I have Misophonia, or the hatred of noise. Can be selective so there are just a couple of noises that drive me to the point of rage!
- I really like Angry Birds in Space!
- Every once in a while, I am on television, and hate when I do a sucky job! I think I really stunk it up today!
- I heard a girl with Aspergers disease sing today, like an angel! Very moving! 
- Want to figure out what I want to do when I grow up. My job is not much fun any more. Not that we work for fun, but I like to enjoy what I am doing and I do not enjoy myself right now.


All for now. More to come soon!

Here we go again...

Welcome summer! Still a bunch of stuff going on and time is still moving so quickly. So here is an update of me and some more complaining!!

Here I go again. Hopping on the weight loss train, again. I am tried, so tired of this whole thing, and I dread trying to do this again. Have yo-yo-ed so much through out my life and am really scared of trying this again. I know if I do lose some of the weight, it will benefit me in so many ways. Health, career, finances, socially, because no one likes the fat guy!

So how and I going to do this? I have no idea?? But I have asked the wife for help, and will try and lean of a few friends as well. I do not think I am strong enough, nor do I have the motivation to even try this again. I guess if dying is not motivation, nothing will work. I think if I do not do something, I will be dead soon.
Will try and keep posted on my progress or lack of progress.

So here is some bitching and complaining for just a little while.

- There are no pugs to be found. I am trying to find a pug puppy.
- Smoking sucks and am glad I have never pick up that habit.
- I really like beer!
- A message to people who chew with your mouth open, smack your lips and food while eating: PLEASE STOP!
- When you lose weight, people are quick to say, good job looking good, keep it up! When you gain weight, people are afraid to say anything to your face like, "Whats going on buddy? You look like shit!"
- Please do not call fat men, "Big Guy" because it can really hurt. I hear a lot of people saying this and it really sucks!
- I really think I have some mental disorders! Every time I hear something on the news or read about it on the internet, I think I have that condition. Not for everything, but for a bunch of stuff! So is my depression and aching legs related to arthritis, diabetes, vitamin D deficiency and so many other things? Or is it a mix and match of all of this, and even more?
- I really love cooking!
- I got a really good hair cut today!!

So that is it for now. Wish me luck!!