Progress and Frustration...

Things are still moving along and progressing. But I am having a hard time dealing with a few issues. First, it is had to accept that I am not 17 or 21 any more. My mind says "yes" but my body says "nope, not going to let you do that today"! I have made some physical strides and this is excellent. I am walking more and the other day, I did 25 minutes of aerobics and 20 minutes of weight lifting. So now things brings me to one thing I have had to deal with each time I try and lose weight; I get really hungry. Maybe the key is limiting the exercise while still keeping my calorie intake low? This is not a race so there is no hurry. I just do not know. Speaking of being in a hurry. I took a look in the mirror the other day and did not like what I saw. So I need to be realistic and understand that I have only been doing this for 55 days. In the scheme of all things, this is no time at all. So lets take a little look at some numbers, facts, and other tid-bits...

• I still have a shit load of weight to lose. I have only weighed myself once over the past 55 days and am looking to weigh again on November 3. I want to know but I am going to wait. Maybe I should really wait until November 24 to weigh, my first 3 month mark? If I had to make a guess, I would say I have lost some where around 45 or 50# so far. At this point, who knows?
• I am looking at losing at least 200 pounds, and possibly losing up to 236. That is a lot of weight. It did not come on over night and I will not lose this over night. If I can some way lose 50 pounds every quarter (3 months) for the next year, that would put me at that goal. that is 3.8 pounds a week or 17 pounds a month. Sounds like a tall goal to me.
• I have already moved into a smaller size of jeans and the other day, I wore a shirt I thought I would never wear again. All of my cloths right now are starting to be a little to big. 
• When I walk, I walk by land marks and each time I try and go a little further and a little further. I have hit a couple of goal land marks so that is exciting for me. I hit a major one last night! 
• I have had a few people notice my weight loss already. What I think really sucks is that for a person trying to take off a large amount of weight, a 50# loss does not look like that much at all.  For a skinny bitch that loses 10#, everyone is amazed. Before anyone really takes notice with that I am doing, I would say it will need to lose over 100# before people really start to notice.

So that is all for now. I am on vacation this week so it has been a small struggle to eat well. I have done ok but not great! Have managed to exercise good. I had the first sweet dessert today which makes me sad because I am a food addict and I can not just eat a little of something. This is vacation so maybe I need to treat my self just a little? 

Ciao for now!