A sad state of the world...

I think it is terrible what happened last night in Colorado. The monster that did this has a heart and soul filled of pure evil! Thoughts and prayers to each and every victim and person involved and affected by this tragic event.

So have not been good with the eating and diet, not at all. I want to get back to it sooo bad! But it is sooo hard! I know you know this!

So here are some thoughts and things going on:

- I hate getting screwed! I think you should do the right thing and that is it! You know who you are and you know what I am talking about. Just make it right.
- I am writing a book, completely fiction! Based on a few events of my life. I know and understand this will never be published and accept it, but I am still having some fun with this!
- Blue crab is one of the best tasting, most delicious foods in the whole world!
- God bless air conditioning!
- I tried making mozzarella cheese for the first time. Need to practice some more! It is kind of fun!
- In my next life, I want to be a pet dog.
- Even though this mass shooting happened, I can not wait to see The Dark Night Rises.
- Maybe this makes me a horrible person but we have a cat and she is a pain in the butt. I love her but I want her to go away! Really, I do, and I do not care how she goes!
- I find Facebook boring. Twitter even worse. I just can not embrace this social media apps for some reason.
- I enjoy clipping coupons but lately, they really SUCK the big one!! Just no good ones out there.
- I will be on TV again on July 29, on The Weekend Diner.

With all of this said, I wish I had something good and meaningful to say. See you next time!

Slow going but still going...

Yes, this first two weeks has started off a little slow but that is ok. There was a week of vacation in there but the eating has been better than anticipated (in a good way) and I am still walking. I got to the point where I can walk up to the end of the street and back and I do not feel like I am going to die. The first day, I could barely make it to the end of the drive way with out being out of breath. I still need to put more into the program! Do not know if there is really any weight loss so far, but that is not really what this is all about.


Why wont you look me directly in the eye? When you are the "fat guy", no one really wants to look you directly in the eye. When I go walking in the mall, at the grocery store, or some other public place, no one will really stop to look me straight in the eye. They turn away fast, look the other way really quick, as if I am contagious and they might get fat by looking at me. Always make me wonder! Makes me very sad.



So there are some things going on...


- Happy birthday to my wife! She is turing $# on Sunday. AARP is just around the corner sweetie. 
- My disease speculation continues! Now I think I have Misophonia, or the hatred of noise. Can be selective so there are just a couple of noises that drive me to the point of rage!
- I really like Angry Birds in Space!
- Every once in a while, I am on television, and hate when I do a sucky job! I think I really stunk it up today!
- I heard a girl with Aspergers disease sing today, like an angel! Very moving! 
- Want to figure out what I want to do when I grow up. My job is not much fun any more. Not that we work for fun, but I like to enjoy what I am doing and I do not enjoy myself right now.


All for now. More to come soon!

Here we go again...

Welcome summer! Still a bunch of stuff going on and time is still moving so quickly. So here is an update of me and some more complaining!!

Here I go again. Hopping on the weight loss train, again. I am tried, so tired of this whole thing, and I dread trying to do this again. Have yo-yo-ed so much through out my life and am really scared of trying this again. I know if I do lose some of the weight, it will benefit me in so many ways. Health, career, finances, socially, because no one likes the fat guy!

So how and I going to do this? I have no idea?? But I have asked the wife for help, and will try and lean of a few friends as well. I do not think I am strong enough, nor do I have the motivation to even try this again. I guess if dying is not motivation, nothing will work. I think if I do not do something, I will be dead soon.
Will try and keep posted on my progress or lack of progress.

So here is some bitching and complaining for just a little while.

- There are no pugs to be found. I am trying to find a pug puppy.
- Smoking sucks and am glad I have never pick up that habit.
- I really like beer!
- A message to people who chew with your mouth open, smack your lips and food while eating: PLEASE STOP!
- When you lose weight, people are quick to say, good job looking good, keep it up! When you gain weight, people are afraid to say anything to your face like, "Whats going on buddy? You look like shit!"
- Please do not call fat men, "Big Guy" because it can really hurt. I hear a lot of people saying this and it really sucks!
- I really think I have some mental disorders! Every time I hear something on the news or read about it on the internet, I think I have that condition. Not for everything, but for a bunch of stuff! So is my depression and aching legs related to arthritis, diabetes, vitamin D deficiency and so many other things? Or is it a mix and match of all of this, and even more?
- I really love cooking!
- I got a really good hair cut today!!

So that is it for now. Wish me luck!!

WOW, it has been a long time...

So a new year, and many new things going on, and some of the same! How about a few updates...


- I turned 45 and on that day, it felt like I have started to fall apart, literally! Getting old sucks!
- Still working for the same company, but we have changed, with new colors and logo. Lots of things happening and I just hope it is all for the best.
- We had our first snow fall this week. I slipped and fell, busted my bad knee again.
- I am still a big ol' tub of goo. The knee is not helping the situation! 
- Time sometimes feels like it is just slipping away. 
- Crazy weather and winter! That is about all I have to say about that!
- I almost know my way around O'hare airport now. Pretty cool but I hate flying!


So I need to start doing a better job of posting here. No promises, but I hope sooner the better. So I will see you in 6 months!

Another non-culinary post...

You would think because I am a chef, there would be more posts about food! Well, not today, again...

Today, I am going to rant about my bank! They are going to take away "free checking" in favor of a monthly service fee. If I maintain a certain balance or have direct deposit, this fee is dismissed. They are also going to charge a monthly fee for using my check card, and it does not matter if I use it once or 100 times. When I first heard about this, it ticked me off a bit and started to wonder how I can get around this fee myself. Solution, become a cash man and only use the card at this banks ATM to avoid this small fee. But then I wondered, "Am I really this cheap"?

I do not believe what would equal a $60 a year fee to use my check card is a really big deal. but if a bank has a million users, and each has this monthly charge of $5, this equals $60 million dollars in income a year for almost doing nothing (most of this banking stuff is automated now, right?). I bet is actually translates to even more money. So if I only use my ATM and pay cash for everything, I will save that $60 a month and if everyone pulls together, we might save a bunch of money collectively.

Then I got to thinking, I really enjoy using my check card. Use it all of the time so why should I really change my habits. If you do not already know, much of my life revolves around Seinfeld (love the TV series, I find a little bit in everything I do and experience) and got to thinking about the episode when Jerry and Elaine are at the car rental place. The counter lady asks, "Would you like the insurance?" Jerry replies, "Yeah, you better give me the insurance. Because I'm gonna beat the hell out of this car!"

So I think I will buy a .50 pack of gum every day or purchase something really not worth the back end fees for the bank and store. I am just going to use the hell out of my check card on petty crap! Hey, if they are going to charge me and every other American a stupid little fee, why not stick it right back to them!

"Sticking it..."

Smoking...

As a "chef", I have never really embraced the habit as smoking like most food service workers. I can not stand the smell and I just think it is disgusting. How can I be expected to cook my very best when my taste receptors have been alerted by smoke? How can you cook your very best for me when you are smoking? One thing I did have to accept as a chef is that my workers will smoke breaks. There is just no way around it. I tried at one point to ban smoking all together but everyone was at each others throats and blood was going to be spilled. I had to give in and let everyone start smoking again.

As a food service professional, I do have one simple request of restaurants, food business’s, and their workers...

Please do not stand out in front of your facility and smoke!

If you are a waiter, I do not want to handle my plate after you smoke. If you are a cook, I do not want you handling my food after you smoke. As a food bagger or counter worker at a grocery store, I do not want you handling my items after you smoke. At least, if I do not see you out front smoking, I do not have to know! It is one of the most unprofessional things a business can do to allow their employees to smoke out front of the store, any time of the day!

If I see you or your employees smoking out front of your business, I am much less likely to spend money in your establishment! I am just saying...and not spending...

What is going on?

What the hell has been going on? Geeze it has been a while since I have posted. So I have been really pissy lately if that is really a word. This have just not been going very well but that is the breaks I guess! I am not going to sit here and complain a bunch, but instead, share some other insights and pointless ramblings!

- I really like playing Mah Jongg! It is a fun online game!
- Skunks really stink! Have some making home in our back yard. The dog does not appreciate!
- It is sometimes fun watching bad movies! Sometimes, they can still have a message.
- A toddler started running at my car the other day as I was driving in a parking lot. The mom was on her cell phone and did not even notice. I am glad I was going less then 5 mph!! SCARY!
- I am on a big lemonade kick right now! I love it and it is hard to get enough!
- We are seriously considering getting rid of cable television: 69 channels of nothing on! We mainly watch network television anyway. Plus they keep taking away channels. HHmmm; Save $65 for not much of anything? Sounds good to me!
- WOW it has been a pretty hot summer so far!
- How would you feel if you are doing a favor for an organization, getting paid nothing (zero, zilch), and you are told the job you are doing stinks? Kind of happened to me today!
- "The Unbearable Lightness of Being". I remember seeing that movie with my sister! That is what I feel like today! Just the name, not the movie.
- Weight loss is off track again and I want to get back into it. Tweaked the knee and it is sooo hot! I crave fall right now!

So cheers for tonight! I will try and do a better job tomorrow!